I know just what you mean. That is the hidden beauty of shrooms. You see thru everything, even your own ego. Little things like- I remember being at a great outdoor mountain music fest and seeing a great band and everything was perfect- except, there was a guy in front of me who was ill with a fever. He mustve caught a bug...he was wrapped in a wool blanket, and its summer in CA. I could tell he was sick not from his appearance, but because of the shrooms, I just could feel how he felt. Fortunately, the vibes of the gathering caught my attention more, so I was able to accept that this guy was sick and he'll get better, and just enjoy the revelations and the tunes and atmosphere.
I also remember being at a hippie show at the Greek in Berkeley, getting into the magic with my friends, and my dad was sick at home. I couldnt get him out of my mind. So instead of battling with trying to ignore it, I found great strength in passing the love from the crowd thru a tube all the way 300 miles north to my dad, channeling healing energy. Im not usually into heavy meditation, but this process made my trip strong and worthy with out worry.
Shrooms give it all to us. Theyre almost more realistic than reality. Ya gotta excercise acceptance and yourself, depending on surroundings. May I suggest being around nature with good friends that wont hassle you if you wander alone? Good music that makes you feel? Try nature, you'll find it to be easier to learn about than people. Even being with nature, you get truths. I usually end up getting sad about the environment and the Earths distresses even moreso...really feeling how nature feels. It can be overwhelming...
When I have music and friends and dancing, thats when I have a "fun" time. Its just as important as "the truths" and allows us to really fell the importance of music and dance. Heh! as if we needed an aid! Well, I'd rather shroom than use chemicals. Its all spiritual fun anyway.
I fumble and think too much and have a hard time speaking my thoughts...tieing my shoe, rolling a smoke... a good companion that is also shroomin' can make all those frustrations very funny. If not, pull yourself up, and focus on the sky. Shrooms squeeze the symbology outta everything.
