hi,
I recently took mushrooms for the first time. i weigh about 120 and am 5'8, but i took a small amount, less than a half eigth oz. of shrooms. the experience was great! the problem is that for the last week, i still see tracers, and its freakingme out. will this ever go away? they're not as extreme as while tripping and i'm thinkin that maybe i've always seen'm just i notice them more now. also, letters seem to jump out a little more while reading. can anyone help?? i'm getting nervouse cuz i'd really like to do it again. also i've smoked bud a couple of times since, and thats when its the most extreme. should i stop smoking for a while? please give me some comphort!
-jesse
Hi Jesse,
Please relax and realize no one gets out alive. You have a life and have begun to question the walls that are all around you. This is a good thing, yet it is a scary thing.
It is ok for the walls to go away, no one likes a prison. Yet freedom is scary, because we are not used to it. Please allow it to happen. It is ok to see things that no one else sees. It is ok to be free. Yet it is not the normal life that your parents had in mind for you.
How ever it came to be, you have opened a door. Yes, you could close it and run away, or you could embrace it and grow from your experience and knowledge. The choose is yours.
No, life will never be the same, you will see things and understand things in ways that no one else does. You are no longer one of the pack. That is scary!
Yet now you can choose to be a leader, and spread the awareness that you have gained, to others.
Sure some will no longer trust you. Some will say you are crazy. Those who truly love being one of the pack will be scared of your independance.
Yet you will have become more aware, more conscious of your life and the walls that want you to stop becoming all you can be.
You have my sympathy. It is not easy when you first begin down this path. But I personally ask you to think about this life that you have been given. It was a gift that you have received free of cost, with no obligation required. What you do with that gift is between you and your GOD. You will not live forever, and to quote Jim Morrison of the Doors, noone gets out alive.
When all is said and done, and you are questioned about the life that you were allowed to live, how will you respond? Will it be a period of self indulgence, or will you be able to show that you have given back some of the gift that you have been given?
NOONE GETS OUT ALIVE!!!! Make it count!!!
A fellow traveler,
bob
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